Ugh.

Didn't weigh this morning.  Forgot...

Coffee for breakfast (iced white chocolate mocha with nonfat milk); beans and rice with flour tortillas for lunch (not the best choice, but better than the alternative, which would have been a burger).  Macaroni and cheese with lowfat milk for dinner.  And I'm having some ice cream.  I've got the points for it, so it's ok, but I feel like I haven't had the energy to spend the time it takes to actually prepare the healthy stuff.

Thinking about lunch tomorrow... I'm taking greek yogurt, some lunch meat (ham), boiled eggs that may end up as egg salad with light mayo, and I have pretzels in my classroom that I can eat with it.

Was planning on taking the baby for a walk with the Hubby, but they're both a bit under the weather, and I can't bring myself to spend any more time away from them than I already have to for work.

That's all for tonight.

Back home...

Back at home tonight, after a couple nights at my parents' house.  Date day/night on Sunday with the Hubby, so we stayed the night - if Smooshy is already asleep when we get back, it's easier than loading him up and running the risk of him not going back to sleep when we get to our house.  Then last night, Hubby worked overtime, and it's better logistically for us to stay there.  Anyway.  Back home tonight, and for the rest of the week.

Doing ok on eating, and remembering (for the most part) to put my stuff in my online WW tracker.  Dinners are the hardest to put in because 1. I'm tired after that and sometimes don't get back on the computer, and 2. if it's anything mixed or pre-made, casseroles, soups, etc with lots of ingredients, it's really hard to calculate the points.  Not really an excuse, I know, but I know most of what goes in is healthy, so...

Weight is 208.  Can't believe I'm actually putting my weight on the internet for anyone to look up.  I think that's been my biggest hang-up about getting started, is putting my actual weight on and then everyone knows.  I know that's what keeps you accountable, though, because you don't want to keep logging on and saying the weight is the same, or going up!

When I got pregnant with Smooshy, I was 208.  It's the heaviest I've ever been (not counting while pregnant, although I did only gain 11 pounds, and he was 8 1/2).  It sucks.

I'm hoping to get Hubby on board with the eating healthy, because it's a bit difficult doing it by myself.  I know I have my friends that are doing this too, but.... it's weird.  I'm feeling weird about it.  They think I'm delicate, I think, and won't say anything to me to keep me on track or tell me I'm slipping.  Or maybe I'm just paranoid, and they are helping me in a nice way?  I don't know.  I guess if they don't know I'm slipping, they can't say anything... and I haven't told them I've messed up a couple times.  So there... for what it's worth.

Anyway, another post tomorrow.  I wanted ice cream when I got home from work, but I didn't have any.  That's good, right?  And as far as activity/exercising goes, I've been cleaning house like mad since I got home (sweating and everything), so that's covered for tonight.  It's a workout if I sweat, and do it for more than 30 minutes.

Smooshy is getting hungry... that's it for now.

A quick update...

May 20... how'd today go?  Well, lunch was good (cream cheese tuna, red and yellow bell peppers, boiled egg, laughing cow cheese wedge, cucumber, avocado, and a banana about 10 minutes after lunch because I was still hungry).  I may need a rubberband around my arm like Brandy wears... so that when I think about food I'm not supposed to have, I can pop myself.  Reason: the only thing I could think about as I was walking back to my room after lunch?  Chocolate mousse frosting.  Seriously?  Well, it's a good thing I didn't have any in my classroom, because I would've eaten it.

Dinner out with the girls (and a couple hubbies) - wanted the fried seafood stuff, ordered (and ate) the grilled.  Not bad, but I don't feel "full" like you do when you stuff yourself full of fried shrimp and french fries.  That's the point, though, right?  I wish I felt more "into it" with this getting healthier thing.  I feel disconnected and halfhearted about it, and I'm not sure why.  I know I need to be healthier, lose some weight, and set a good example for my son, and I know I'll be excited with the results, but I think its that I haven't seen results yet (not so much on patience, I know), and I tend to give up if I don't get them quick.  Trying not to do that this time, which is why I'm hoping my friends that are doing this with me will help kick me into gear if I start slipping.

Weight going up tomorrow (been staying at my parents' house the last few days without access to my digital scale).  What else?  Not on the exercise bandwagon yet, it's much harder at my parents' house, and when the hubby is working at night.  Hoping to play some Kinect this weekend and next week to get an actual routine started.  And any night we're all at home, we can take Smooshy on walks around the neighborhood or ride our bikes.

That's it.  For now.  More rules updates later, probably.  Night.

Getting Started... the Rules.

Let's start by saying why I've started this blog.  I've got a perfectly good blog already going (http://wifeypie.blogspot.com) but this one serves a different purpose.  This blog is to document a year-long journey (maybe longer, but more about that later) to a healthier me.  Hopefully "healthier" also means "smaller" and "weighing less" because my size and weight right now are not good.

Here's the rules:
1. Follow the Weight Watchers plan of eating, and stay within my daily allowance of points.
2. Make smart choices - eat nutrient dense foods that will keep me full longer, so that I'm not tempted to eat junk and empty calories.
3. Be more active - get up, get out, and get moving.  Over the summer (depending on the budget) this may include a membership to an actual gym, or possibly hot yoga, but it means at least going on walks and playing the Kinect (dance games!) at least 3-4 times a week.
4. Update the blog as often as possible.  Most times this will be at least a short blurb every night with my weight and how I did for the day, but sometimes if I'm not home and don't have access to the computer, it may have to skip a night.
5. Add rules as necessary during the year... I may decide at some point to restrict certain foods, or add workout rules, etc...

That's all for now - when I get home tomorrow I'll weigh in and get the first of my daily posts started!

-Wifeypie